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Not forever.
Lately, I've not been mentally good. And I'm serious...
I can't sleep properly.
I can't think properly.
I get angered really easily.
Among other things.
This might sound casual from me, but this time It's true.
I can't sleep properly for 4 nights, except when I got drunk with a group of friends, only way I got some sleep that night, but I don't wanna repeat that again. Not healthy in any aspect...
Not to mention, I'm starting my own life, on a complete foreign country 3000km away from mine, in university, no job, all alone by myself...
I've said before I was willing to keep drawing and improve.
But all that plan backfired at me, here's why:
Im going back to my old style...
It was like knowing your lil' car, and then you changed to a "plane" where everything inside is completely different and you barely entered and It already begs too much of you.
I prefer stick to my creation and work with it over time, instead going for other guy style, that only he knows 100%, and for much he can explain, you can never apply 100%.
And that part was by my choice change the whole picture upside down to a new thing.
Huge mistake I can say in my perspective.
That happiness only lasted like 1 week.
Turned into stress, being lost, and all that his down.
You can't simply jump from level 10 to level 60 and expect to be the same as level 10.
And that's what I did. It was like using a cheat code and now I have myself handed to this hell.
And I don't feel any joy in drawing in the mean time.
Cause you think you're going great but in fact you aren't. There's always something failing.
By this point, I prefer to stick to my previous style, and by the time being, make sure I didn't forget how to do it...
You can expect from me a thing or 2, but I don't make promises.
:::UPDATE:::
In the mean time... you can check my struggles on my tumblr.
It's on my dA ID...
I'll explain everything.
Lately, I've not been mentally good. And I'm serious...
I can't sleep properly.
I can't think properly.
I get angered really easily.
Among other things.
This might sound casual from me, but this time It's true.
I can't sleep properly for 4 nights, except when I got drunk with a group of friends, only way I got some sleep that night, but I don't wanna repeat that again. Not healthy in any aspect...
Not to mention, I'm starting my own life, on a complete foreign country 3000km away from mine, in university, no job, all alone by myself...
I've said before I was willing to keep drawing and improve.
But all that plan backfired at me, here's why:
Im going back to my old style...
It was like knowing your lil' car, and then you changed to a "plane" where everything inside is completely different and you barely entered and It already begs too much of you.
I prefer stick to my creation and work with it over time, instead going for other guy style, that only he knows 100%, and for much he can explain, you can never apply 100%.
And that part was by my choice change the whole picture upside down to a new thing.
Huge mistake I can say in my perspective.
That happiness only lasted like 1 week.
Turned into stress, being lost, and all that his down.
You can't simply jump from level 10 to level 60 and expect to be the same as level 10.
And that's what I did. It was like using a cheat code and now I have myself handed to this hell.
And I don't feel any joy in drawing in the mean time.
Cause you think you're going great but in fact you aren't. There's always something failing.
THIS IS WHERE WE ENTER A CERTAIN PHASE WE ALL KNOW!
VVVVV
- First you have unlimited "continues". You have no excuse to shut down. You just keep drawing and drawing and drawing. Eventually, you start nailing it and getting good!
- You can go through all the parts needed to create AT LEAST a good work, but there's always in the end when you complete It, something you missed, something that could have made the work EVEN better!
- This will always be with you, if you're a traditional artist like me, ALWAYS.
- Then, you reach that phase where you are so frustrated from repeating and missing certain points you missed and same mistakes, that all your knowledge starts to weaken, to the point where you got mediocre in a thing you repeated so much that you were supposed to be good at, but just don't! Cause you repeated and missed so many times that your brain can't handle!
Bottom line
I'm quitting for some time.By this point, I prefer to stick to my previous style, and by the time being, make sure I didn't forget how to do it...
You can expect from me a thing or 2, but I don't make promises.
:::UPDATE:::
In the mean time... you can check my struggles on my tumblr.
It's on my dA ID...
So far.
Hello everyone.
First of, (late) Merry Christmas and a (future) Happy New Year!
I'm surprised this account still exists. I've been absent for a long time, and I'm kind of sorry.
I'm in my last simester in my program, and I'm ending in January! After that, finding a job.
In other news, recently, me and my school went to a contest called "SeaFood Tomorrow", and me and my partner won 1 of 3 prizes in first place, at National level.
And around May and June of 2019, we are going to France to go against more than 5 countries.
Back to art.
I was sitting here in front of my PC and checking some art (as part of my routine), and a tiny sense of
Internship ended!
I'M FREE ONCE AGAIN!
Back home, unlimited internet, showers with actual shampoo, etc...
Anyway, I made 4 drawings, but I'll upload them another time.
Still around here. :P
Hey everyone.
I'm still around. Checking my dA and such.
I haven't been drawing a lot, but I made something weeks ago, and I'm secure to say that my style and current skill didn't get any rust, haha.
I'm currently on an intership. I'm working in a hotel's kitchen as a student.
I'm sharing a house with 6 guys, no internet there, no TV.
I'm in the middle of nowhere, in a town where nothing happens most of times, or nothing at all. The temperature is between 43 and 50ºC, and strangely, the heat doesn't get me in a bad mood like It used too, which is really weird even for myself.
Simply put, I didn't stop at all, the drawing are rare l
Kind of afraid to admit It.
*dusting out the jornal*
Wow, time passed since last jornal.
Hello, to who might read this.
I think It's no surprise by this point that this is getting abandoned slowly.
"Kind of afraid to admit It.", but I guess art is around 90% dead inside me. The feeling to draw I mean.
I actually haven't fully stopped, I sometimes sketch something from time to time.
But somehting worth posting, It's happening only 1 time per month, with rarely a 3rd one.
So what is keeping me? Arriving late home from school, and lazyness. Not even weekends make me turn on the scanner and post something here.
But like I said, there's almost nothing worth showing h
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I know the feel of difference to a lesser extend, after almost two decades my room suffered an overhaul that left it completely claustrophobic, i couldn't sleep in it for a week because i started having panic attacks, enough for my family to worry and call if i was ok.
But dude, you're right, take a break, relax, play a video game, it worked for me when i had those rough time i told you about, over the time you will get established and things will ease.
It can take time and even after things are ok, you do feel the stress, but again, believe me, take a deep breath, do something else you like, over the time you will feel better and the shock of the "moving up too fast" will slow down until stuff is settled.
Either way i hope you get better
But dude, you're right, take a break, relax, play a video game, it worked for me when i had those rough time i told you about, over the time you will get established and things will ease.
It can take time and even after things are ok, you do feel the stress, but again, believe me, take a deep breath, do something else you like, over the time you will feel better and the shock of the "moving up too fast" will slow down until stuff is settled.
Either way i hope you get better